oh yeah
im a mess
i need to clean up pretty fast
and oh yeah i have nothing in mind to post
down right mess
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Good Scare
This is one good scare for me.
I just installed this game for my brother. Since my C drive is nearly full I smartly install it in my personal folder and again with the stroke of a genius did not put it in a specific folder. Which is really a disaster in the making.
The program turn out to be faulty which annoys me considering the long hour of waiting for it to finish downloading. Half annoyed half tired i click on the uninstall icon and seeming thought that i was just ridding the program. Another big mistake.
The unistaller starts working. File by file were deleted. And with horror i watched as all my precious files, my songs, my pictures, my programs, my games, my videos, my animes and my movies disappeared before my very eyes. You could imagine the horror stricken face etched on my face.
OMG all of it gone for good? What in the world will happen to me without my songs! NO!!!
Panic overwhelmed me. I nearly screamed out of frustration. Last i check there wasn't any free full file recovery program out there(similar problem happened with my other com =.=). Desperate for something to salvage out of the mess of my life i type away file recovery free and clicked search.
and this popped out http://www.officerecovery.com/freeundelete/
and my problem solved! luckily. what a blardy scare. now i will keep a backup.
.
how fast can this cycle go?
before i knew it i'm in another mess
right after another mess
pathetic. yet i cant do anything about it.
i need that drug.
I just installed this game for my brother. Since my C drive is nearly full I smartly install it in my personal folder and again with the stroke of a genius did not put it in a specific folder. Which is really a disaster in the making.
The program turn out to be faulty which annoys me considering the long hour of waiting for it to finish downloading. Half annoyed half tired i click on the uninstall icon and seeming thought that i was just ridding the program. Another big mistake.
The unistaller starts working. File by file were deleted. And with horror i watched as all my precious files, my songs, my pictures, my programs, my games, my videos, my animes and my movies disappeared before my very eyes. You could imagine the horror stricken face etched on my face.
OMG all of it gone for good? What in the world will happen to me without my songs! NO!!!
Panic overwhelmed me. I nearly screamed out of frustration. Last i check there wasn't any free full file recovery program out there(similar problem happened with my other com =.=). Desperate for something to salvage out of the mess of my life i type away file recovery free and clicked search.
and this popped out http://www.officerecovery.com/freeundelete/
and my problem solved! luckily. what a blardy scare. now i will keep a backup.
.
how fast can this cycle go?
before i knew it i'm in another mess
right after another mess
pathetic. yet i cant do anything about it.
i need that drug.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Self Reflection
this is a post after i read my old blog posts.
Thinking back I wasn't like this. I was queerer by all standard. In fact I was so queer I don't fit in in most places. I would hover around from one group to another collecting whats important to me as I went along. No regards for others. Only me and my business. Nothing else matters. That was who I was before.
Back then I don't have much care for companionship. I was a lone wolf. Me myself and my shadow was my motto. I was afraid to be close to anyone and shy away from any possible threat. I still remember why. I was so afraid of losing those who are dear to me that I don't want anyone to be one. But the truth is I crave them.
I need to talk to someone all the time. But none understand me. I was in a standard of my own when was growing up. I lack of all those things that boys used to play with. I have no PlayStation, Cable nor Computer Games which were and are the topics frequented in boy's conversation. I sucked in sports and aced my test all time. Which is not a healthy mix. So i grew up with friends enough to count with my 10 fingers. And I lost them one by one.
Maybe it was my fault somewhere but most of those who were close to me will move on after a year. I mean really move on to other places. And we always lost contact. By the end of of primary year I lost contact with everyone I was close to. I start to think that maybe i should not be close to anyone lest they move away from me. 'I am a curse.'
That was who I was. And now I think I ought to stay that way. Meeting you changed everything. Somehow you understand or pretend to. But I don't really care. I was comfortable with you, happy in fact. But my mouth run faster than my brain. I have no idea what should I do now. I have no idea how to mend it. I can't take back what i said.
Its been a year you know. I think things still stay the same huh? I still carry a curse.
The question now is should I revert back or stay the way I am?
I know the answer to that myself.
.
.
.
Being close to somebody is drug to me. I got attached to someone easily. And when I am close to the drug I am stupid. When I'm drugged I got stupider. When I'm trying to get rid of the drug I'm stupidest. When I run out of drug. I will be stupidier. After I'm clear of it I will have a hangover and I'll be stupider than the stupidest. bottomline that drug render me stupid. BUT THE PROBLEM IS I LOVE THAT DRUG! xD
Thinking back I wasn't like this. I was queerer by all standard. In fact I was so queer I don't fit in in most places. I would hover around from one group to another collecting whats important to me as I went along. No regards for others. Only me and my business. Nothing else matters. That was who I was before.
Back then I don't have much care for companionship. I was a lone wolf. Me myself and my shadow was my motto. I was afraid to be close to anyone and shy away from any possible threat. I still remember why. I was so afraid of losing those who are dear to me that I don't want anyone to be one. But the truth is I crave them.
I need to talk to someone all the time. But none understand me. I was in a standard of my own when was growing up. I lack of all those things that boys used to play with. I have no PlayStation, Cable nor Computer Games which were and are the topics frequented in boy's conversation. I sucked in sports and aced my test all time. Which is not a healthy mix. So i grew up with friends enough to count with my 10 fingers. And I lost them one by one.
Maybe it was my fault somewhere but most of those who were close to me will move on after a year. I mean really move on to other places. And we always lost contact. By the end of of primary year I lost contact with everyone I was close to. I start to think that maybe i should not be close to anyone lest they move away from me. 'I am a curse.'
That was who I was. And now I think I ought to stay that way. Meeting you changed everything. Somehow you understand or pretend to. But I don't really care. I was comfortable with you, happy in fact. But my mouth run faster than my brain. I have no idea what should I do now. I have no idea how to mend it. I can't take back what i said.
Its been a year you know. I think things still stay the same huh? I still carry a curse.
The question now is should I revert back or stay the way I am?
I know the answer to that myself.
.
.
.
Being close to somebody is drug to me. I got attached to someone easily. And when I am close to the drug I am stupid. When I'm drugged I got stupider. When I'm trying to get rid of the drug I'm stupidest. When I run out of drug. I will be stupidier. After I'm clear of it I will have a hangover and I'll be stupider than the stupidest. bottomline that drug render me stupid. BUT THE PROBLEM IS I LOVE THAT DRUG! xD
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Happy Mothers Day~
After hard labour during labour day you are now a mother! So happy mothers day~ xD
i've been cracking lame jokes on daily basis now. should make a career out of it eh? lol so random
Happy mothers day mom!
i know this post is one day past it but in your dictionary, mothers day is everyday so today is mothers day, right? I don't know where i would be without you. We used to fight a lot i know. I was such a hot head back then (and still am apparently) but you were always so forgiving, so understanding.
I know what kind of insolence brat i was. I had no regards for discipline nor for rules (and still am). Its hard being the second and 20 months apart from my sister. I guess now that i am all grown up i realise what kind of attention seeker i was. If you could disown me you probably would. Why not? i ran away once. trashed people few times. yell like mad man countless of times. But you were still there for me. all those years.
I still remember what you said to me back then. and what kind of mark it made in my life. Now i see the world in my own perspective. a perspective differ from the world.
Mom,
You thought me so much. Yet i am unable to repay any of it. even if i carry you on my back to perform haj and carry you back it does not even amount to what you had given me. All i can do is thank you and love you.
You're more than a woman, mom. You're my mother.
Happy Mothers DAY!
i've been cracking lame jokes on daily basis now. should make a career out of it eh? lol so random
Happy mothers day mom!
i know this post is one day past it but in your dictionary, mothers day is everyday so today is mothers day, right? I don't know where i would be without you. We used to fight a lot i know. I was such a hot head back then (and still am apparently) but you were always so forgiving, so understanding.
I know what kind of insolence brat i was. I had no regards for discipline nor for rules (and still am). Its hard being the second and 20 months apart from my sister. I guess now that i am all grown up i realise what kind of attention seeker i was. If you could disown me you probably would. Why not? i ran away once. trashed people few times. yell like mad man countless of times. But you were still there for me. all those years.
I still remember what you said to me back then. and what kind of mark it made in my life. Now i see the world in my own perspective. a perspective differ from the world.
Mom,
You thought me so much. Yet i am unable to repay any of it. even if i carry you on my back to perform haj and carry you back it does not even amount to what you had given me. All i can do is thank you and love you.
You're more than a woman, mom. You're my mother.
Happy Mothers DAY!
Monday, May 4, 2009
DJ OZMA
WARNING!
DO NOT IN ANY CIRCUMSTANCES PRESS THE PLAY BUTTON IN YOUR OFFICE OR AT SCHOOL
PROCEED WITH CARE xD
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most probably the most hilarious and eww-able PV i ever watched (or ever will)
note: i did not look for this stuff mind you. found it listed under the most viewed video in jpopasia.com for quite sometime xD
DJ OZMA 『DRINKIN' BOYS』
DO NOT IN ANY CIRCUMSTANCES PRESS THE PLAY BUTTON IN YOUR OFFICE OR AT SCHOOL
PROCEED WITH CARE xD
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most probably the most hilarious and eww-able PV i ever watched (or ever will)
note: i did not look for this stuff mind you. found it listed under the most viewed video in jpopasia.com for quite sometime xD
DJ OZMA 『DRINKIN' BOYS』
Saturday, May 2, 2009
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