commitment

short note: feels so hard to commit to anything. why?

i am going to revive this blog. this time really.
been having a tough time committing to anything lately. for 2 months long all i'd done was making empty promises to myself and hope that things are going to sort out by it self. Enough i say. Nothing is going to happen unless i do it on my own. but its so hard.. ):

i am not really sure what is it but after that 'supposed' holiday i'm really down on something. i tried by best to avoid falling into depression again but after a few weeks i gave in. its too much really. life is too much and im too stupid. that being said, i have to buck up seriously. i have 4 more months to complete what i set out to do. and i have to start now.

hope its not too late..