elephant.

short note: foundation.

found this song by this morning.
very simple song with very deep meaning.

rachael yamagata - elephant
elephant... teeth sinking into heart (2008)




If the elephants have past lives,
Yet are destined to always remember,
It's no wonder how they scream,
Like you and I, they must have some temper.

And I am dreaming of them on the plains,
Dirtying up their beds,
Watching for some kind of rain
To cool their hot heads.

And how dare that you send me that card
When I'm doing all that I can do.
You are forcing me to remember
When all I want is to just forget you.

If the tiger shall protect her young,
Then tell me how did you slip by.
All my instincts have failed me for once
I must have somehow slept the whole night.

And I am dreaming of them with their kill,
Tearing it all apart,
Blood dripping from their lips,
And teeth sinking in to heart.

And how dare that you say you will call,
When you know I need some peace of mind..
If you had to take sides with the animals,
Won't you do it with one who is kind?

If the hawks in the trees need the dead,
If you're living you don't stand a chance.
For a time, though you share the same bed,
There are only two ends to this dance.

You can flee with your wounds just in time,
Or lie there as he feeds,
Watching yourself ripped to shreds
And laughing as you bleed.

So for those of you falling in love,
Keep it kind, keep it good, keep it right.
Throw yourself in the midst of danger,
But keep one eye open at night.

lyrics from
azlyrics.com

Sarah and Gifts

short note: i guess we are just going with the flow. without a clue in our head. silly.

I finally managed to restore Sarah back to her original state save for a few 'unexplainable' scratches and dents on her back. Alright i might have dropped/knocked her once or twice by accident but, honestly, i don't know how she got those horrible scratches. I love her but accidents do happen, eh?

I did all the restoration process my self and i am very proud of the result :) in fact except for loud sounding G-string, which i cant explain why, i think she sounds better now. she smells wonderful and feels so smooth and silky. Cool to the touch yet warm in the tone. pardon me.

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i just realised that i do not have any emotional attachment to any gift that i received. I don't think i ever put a thought into them although its different when im giving things. I do try though. I tried to love the things that i got but i just can't. Its like loving someone you don't like. It's tiring and full of lies.

Maybe its the same with everyone else. maybe when someone received something from others they will be happy with it for awhile (just to be polite, perhaps) then the feeling will subside and it will just end up on their shelve to collect dust. Maybe im just looking too hard at something so stupid. Its just that i don't want to think of the other possibility. That i am incapable of love. LOL. that sure is depressing.

i thought of writing more but it will be unrelated and too long. some other time then. if i can still remember :)

buix.

meet ryn-chan :)

short note: urgh nooo. dan.. dr.. rawrf

i went to guitar heaven and back
with a baby!

went to excelsior shopping centre on tues. It's an old place but you can't believe how many music stores packed into it. I think i passed at least 13 of them. or more. must be more. I lost count when i saw the number of guitars on display. and its not small stores, mind you.

Its a rarity to find more than one music store in a shopping center. Let alone 13+ of them. And some of these are really hugee stores with racks upon racks of stuffs. Heavenly. And the price is really reasonable too. I got my guitar (yamaha f-310, yeah i rant about it before) for $208 (approx. rm495) + set up, lower than the prices that i checked here. plus, think i saw D'addario strings for only 7/9 bucks(RM14/18) compared to 24+ here. sales competition is good eh?

(do tell me you can find cheaper price for it)

i don't know what got over me. I didn't think much when it got it and just went for it xD lately i did everything on a whim. less brain work. which is good; or bad haha.
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i see that, i haven't written a long blog post for awhile. might try to do that soon.
btw, YUI's muffler out on YOUTUBE.
for some reason i don't really like it.
its more like YUI's personal story in a song. It lacks of hooks and sadly, forgettable. but still, i wish there's live performance. though 99.9999999% i wont be able to attend it xD

GLORIA/ALWAYS

short note: Happy New Year!!

Happy New Year World ;D
09 was a difficult year. Terrible things happened even from the beginning of the year.
So, lets hope for a better year ahead. A new decade, a new beginning. Of sort.

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Lets start the year with:



GLORIA!!!
while its still available.
It seems SONY is busy protecting YUI image online. Even as far as censoring her unofficial pictures. Such pain.

AND AND



MIKA NAKASHIMA - ALWAYS!
shes back to the ORION/FOCUS genre!
I think she has a very nice sad/dark voice that pierce through your heart when you listen to her ballads. She should stick to ballad ;D