short note: i guess we are just going with the flow. without a clue in our head. silly.
I finally managed to restore Sarah back to her original state save for a few 'unexplainable' scratches and dents on her back. Alright i might have dropped/knocked her once or twice by accident but, honestly, i don't know how she got those horrible scratches. I love her but accidents do happen, eh?
I did all the restoration process my self and i am very proud of the result :) in fact except for loud sounding G-string, which i cant explain why, i think she sounds better now. she smells wonderful and feels so smooth and silky. Cool to the touch yet warm in the tone. pardon me.
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i just realised that i do not have any emotional attachment to any gift that i received. I don't think i ever put a thought into them although its different when im giving things. I do try though. I tried to love the things that i got but i just can't. Its like loving someone you don't like. It's tiring and full of lies.
Maybe its the same with everyone else. maybe when someone received something from others they will be happy with it for awhile (just to be polite, perhaps) then the feeling will subside and it will just end up on their shelve to collect dust. Maybe im just looking too hard at something so stupid. Its just that i don't want to think of the other possibility. That i am incapable of love. LOL. that sure is depressing.
i thought of writing more but it will be unrelated and too long. some other time then. if i can still remember :)
buix.
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